New Moon in Capricorn
Capricorn you know has a secret craving to be deeply deeply held and known. To become prodigal, to return, and be met by the affirming gaze and pride of the paternal.
With the New Moon in Capricorn conjunct Venus and Pluto in Aquarius, and Mars and Mercury in Capricorn, not only are we experiencing the impact of a world without patrimony and rites of integration / incorporation, but we feel that need within ourselves.
The need to be seen. To be contacted. To be affirmed. To be congealed. To be known and named.
This is a great threshold to name your need out loud to yourself. Without this gentle, life affirming action, we split. Instead of fully crossing our threshold, we break off, leave parts of ourselves back there.
Name the need to be contacted, met, and held.
This is preventative community care. This kind of holding reshapes us.
When a child emerges from the dark womb of his mother, he needs to be caught and held.
He needs contact. And this is an important rite. It is coagulation.
It seals the deal on the tether to this physical realm where the ineffable and unspeakable become tangible, languagable, and nameable experiences--where the endless void transforms into "Mother", "Father", matter, pattern, and the field of the Earth herself.
We need this contact.
We cannot go without it.
Yet, so many of us have crossed many, many thresholds touch-starved with no one's eyes laid on us but our own in the mirror, wondering if all that we just went through even mattered.
I myself have been here so many times. Touching my skin, pinching the fat on my face, and feeling a deep ache of a need that cannot be named.
Without this contact, we split.
One part of us remains there in the void of the otherworld while the other part of us launches into time-bound constructs, identity, and cultural codex.
It's disorienting to begin this way and, yet, many do not have a choice. The current structures of our society ask us to either adapt, go insane, or die at the threshold. So, we choose our own path here, based on the material we have inside of us.
If we're lucky, at the threshold we find contact.
This New Moon in Capricorn asks for contact.
Capricorn asks for welcome, affirmation, praise, reception, and deep holding after having hauled himself up from the deep seas onto the top of the mountain.
And this is a normative, right craving for the paternal in the body-soul codex.
Because when the body is so deeply received after braving those thresholds in the wilderness, those fissures that were created in the wildness--those wild cracks around the irises and in the palms and in the core tissues of the body--begin to seal.
The arms of other bodies hold us in as we settle down into the new self and into the next stretch of being a human on this Earth.
Contact, reception, praise, and deep holding is a patrimonial offering that we give each other.
Without rites of incorporation (or integration) after crossing hard thresholds, we may not know how to hold our own frame, how to bring what is inside of us, and how to deal with praise, belonging, love, and adoration.
Without contact and rites of incorporation, being admired, loved, and received feels like wilder territory than all the many nights we have starved ourselves in those wilderness places of initiation in order to try to be born again and make something of life.
Without rites of integration, we find more safety in the voided need and those unholy hungers, than we do in the reception and in praise. To be received? To receive praise? We might as well be facing off death itself.
There is a vulnerability in admitting that we need this and in saying "I need to be celebrated" and “I need to be seen”, but this is what the Capricorn New Moon is asking for.
Capricorn asks us to disrupt the colonial imprint of taking what we need unconsciously and without consent by naming our needs clearly out loud.
Without naming our need out loud, we get sophisticated with how we meet them, often creating unconscious contracts with lovers, partners, clients, and friends that we hope will meet us in our bottomless unspoken questions.
We need to say it:
I need to be met.
I need to be celebrated.
I want someone to feel proud of me.
I want someone to see that I did that.
I want someone to affirm what I just braved.
I need to be held.
I need to be seen.
I need contact.
